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Yesterday was the last loading day, I gained from chowing so much yesterday.

168 lbs

135 lbs – goal

33 lbs to my goal

Had the 25 drops, and in a few minutes having a 1/2 cup of Special K cereal.  After getting back from bringing the kids to

camp, I’ll start my water intake.  Then 25 drops at lunch and so forth.  I’ll edit this post as the day goes.

32 oz of water down so far.  On to my next big cup.

Had the lunch 25 drops, and now 10 minutes later going to have 5 oz chix with (no sugar) hot sauce mixed in a little in a pan to heat it.  Putting the chix in lettuce wraps.  Dessert 1 apple.


3:22pm just finished a total 64 oz of water so far today, holy cow.  I feel so full of water like a water balloon

1 more big cup to finish and done with water for the day thankfully.  Can’t drink water too late or I won’t get any sleep.

Talk about feeling hydrated LOL

Later will have 25 drops for dinner close to 6pm and then dinner prob mimic lunch because it was that good.

I don’t know if I’ll lose weight overnight, but I’m so looking forward to weighing tomorrow morning.

(For dinner I had same as lunch except instead of an apple, I had a cup of strawberries.)

I was pretty hungry, which I know will pass soon, but scarfed the lettuce wraps down like I was a vacuum lol

That was a great dinner.  Finishing my water and done for the day until tomorrow.  Hopefully even a tiny budge in weight

loss will be so cool!


Determination is on my side today.

HCG diet drops, ‘loading day’ # 2.  Tomorrow starts ‘the diet’ so I’m bulking up in calories today.

Yesterday I weighed in at 167

Today 166.4

Goal is 135 lbs.

Had the morning drops-25 drops and about to eat a sammich (yes for the morning)

On my menu today: I have 2 asiago roast beef sandwiches, 2 large fuji apple chix salads,

2 mango smoothies, 1 large ice coffee, if I can fit it I’ll have a Nong Shim spicy noodle soup

later 😀

Yes, all for me lol


After the Casey Anthony verdict of ‘not guilty’ came down yesterday, and was completely stunned, I took

that anger/upset to put that energy into making me determined to finally lose these 30 lbs. not just for mental

health, but physically the chronic pain sucks, and I think the weight loss may help at least my lower back arthritis

I hope.

Here’s to hoping these 30 lbs are lost in 30 day or less, figuring on this diet you lose 1-3 lbs a day.  Crossing fingers.

Loading day 1

restart yet again because I found out we were going to my parents house and didn’t need to explain the whole diet thing, as people think you’re prob nuts for it.

I’m not over eating, but not watching what I eat, as it’s loading day 1.

167 lbs, 30 lbs to lose to 135 lbs as my goal

Had 25 drops this morning, 4 pieces of toast/butter, some coffee

Not really that hungry today but have to load up.

25 hcg drops 12:00pm; having Nong Shim noodle spicy soup and some ice tea and an apple


Loading day # 2, not at all surprised my weight went up as I ate a lot yesterday lol

Weight today 6/23 is 167 lbs.  Yesterday 165 lbs. Tomorrow starts very low calorie diet with the HCG drops (the loading 2 days are to prepare your body for the shift to low calorie basically.)

Taking the morning drops now, then having some toast or a bagel, maybe some soup, and then

for lunch the drops and then I have a salad already ready to go that has cheese in it, etc etc.

Last day to chow down like a mule 😀  Reminds me, for later/dinner I’ll probably have a bunch of bowtie pasta.

ROCK IT!  goal of 135 lbs

Their day went so well I had to post about it and how happy it makes me that they, especially my youngest, had an awesome day!

Good times!  They swam, did archery, arts & crafts, and more.  My youngest went from all shy and freaked out this morning, to he’s hugged me numerous times this evening and how his counselor Becky loves Spongebob and gave him a sticker (I think he thinks she’s perty) 🙂  lol  She’s a sweetheart as his other counselor is.  Take it one day at a time, and so proud of them for doing so great and coming home so talkative and so happy to tell me about their days events.  Even with some rain, that couldn’t bring their great day down.  So happy.  Making them burritos for dinner after they shower and then winding down for the night.  My mom was so happy when she just talked to the kids, and relief that my youngest had such an amazing day.  xoxox

I have really no excuse, yesterday should have been HCG loading day # 2, but due to unforeseen events, I scrapped the day, ate junk food without the hcg drops.

So today is day 1 HCG drops loading day, just took the drops around 10 mins. ago

So today is filled of iced coffees, fats like cheeses, soups etc. ‘loading’ up, tomorrow Thurs. is loading day 2 and then Friday starts low

calories dieting.  Need to lose 25-30 lbs max and even some weight loss will make me feel better about myself both physically and mentally.

First goal is to hit 159 lbs, then maybe 155, then 149, 145, 140 and so forth.  I haven’t seen 150’s in a while so that’s my first goal.  I want to do smaller goals of going down 5 lbs each to hit a goal so I don’t discourage myself.

Not sure my weight today but was 165 Monday.


Today is Wednesday and hopefully a better day.  Unfortunately didn’t start out well at all.  My kids started camp today and my youngest spazzed out at camp.  He didn’t want to go back home, but yet he didn’t want to go in the fenced in playground area with his group.  In other words, he wanted to go in there, but was being shy.  He went from being so happy to go back to camp to (like a lightswitch) turning into a ‘different’ person.  He had a tough time transitioning from kindergarten to a town school for 1st grade, so this shouldn’t surprise me, but it did and was very frustrating.  It’s like I can’t leave when he’s not in the fenced area, and don’t want to leave when he’s unhappy, but yet no offense I’m not standing there waiting all day so after a while please choose to go in or just forget it and go home.  Finally he sat down and chilled out, and the counselors who I know from last summer were thankfully soooooo patient and cool about it and just said that they would call me if he needed to be picked up.

Hope I’m not jinxing myself, but so far no phone calls from the camp so I can only pray he adjusts.  I really thought a year later, after last summers issues that he’d be fine.  Last summer he got ‘kicked out’ of camp after I had a few calls and a few days of picking him up, they finally just couldn’t have him there.  Basically it was him hitting another kid.  He used to have issues with who goes in what order in a line for ie. or instead of using his words, lashed out that way.  He’s improved sooooo much through 1st grade, each year he improves, and I just pray he makes it through the summer camp weeks.  Last year he only finished around 2 weeks and was removed.  This year the camp total runs 10 weeks.  Can only hope.



HCG diet (liquid drops that you place under the tongue) 25 drops morning, lunch, dinner 10 mins before you eat.  1st 2 days are loading days of normal & more fatty foods, then day 3 starts the low calorie diet days.  I’ve been on this diet before, in part, before going on a trip to Disney World where I put a stop to it just before and now ready to start over again.

Today is day 1 of the HCG diet (liquid drops version.)  Loading day 1 meaning eat normal, some higher fats etc. to prepare yourself when day 3 starts the low calorie days.

Start weight: 165 lbs, today

Goal weight: 135 lbs and would be very happy with hitting a max. down to 140 lbs

30 lbs to lose to 135 lbs.


In other unrelated news, the Casey Anthony trial is still going on that I’m following, with the defense now ticking the Judge off, again.

Also, unrelated, my dad had cancer last year (back of the tongue) just like actor Michael Douglas.  Ironically Mr. Douglas and my dad both had treatment for the same cancer, at the same hospital in NYC, same treatment schedule and same outcome that they both beat the cancer thank God.  Ironic because when I was in 3rd grade, we lived out in California for 2 years and the first year we rented Michael Douglas’s house, who was then married to his now ex wife.  So we’ve met Michael Douglas, during that year a few times.  I was only around 8 yrs old and Michael Douglas was coming out that year with the movie Romancing the Stone.  It was a great year, but anyways, it was just very odd/coincidence that my dad and he had cancer at the same time, but also the same exact cancer, and treated at the same exact hospital.

Currently, a few weeks ago my dad had a PET scan (6 month follow up) and the PET scan picked something up on it in the lymph node/lung area.  They performed after that a biopsy.  Thankfully it was a negative result, or so I thought.  From what my mom told me just last week, that it was negative, but it was negative on something that wasn’t what they’d hoped to test.  So really, it’s a negative but meaningless to what the doctors wanted to really test.  The doctors told my dad they want to do an exploratory surgery where they go in through his neck, down and to the lymph nodes.  They said it’s elective, but they want to do this because my dad’s lymph nodes are enlarged since the previous January PET scan.  Well, my dad hears the words ‘negative’ and ‘elective’ and so he said he’d ‘think about it.’

You can’t tell my dad elective, he’s a horrible patient in the sense that he hates going to the dentist/doctors unless he has to.  So to tell him elective really he’s hearing ‘well ok no need, thanks.’  So now it’s at least 2 weeks later, I just found all this out, and my dad still hasn’t agreed to get this exploratory surgery done.

Basically, my worst fear now is my dad refuses to get this done, or keeps putting this off, and let’s just say it’s lymphona or other cancer, it spreads, he then starts getting symptoms and then it’s too late.  Too late to fight it, too late to cure it.  I don’t want my dad to ever suffer a painful cancer/death, that’s as blunt as I can be in writing this.  I fear he will put this off and IF it’s cancer could be too late.

At least if he got the exploratory done, best case it’s nothing at all, but in how the doctors seem concerned, let’s say they do that and do find it’s for ie. lymphoma, then my dad can at least go through treatment or whatever needs to be done, and hopefully stand a fighting chance to beat cancer again.

I don’t know what’s going to happen now.  Part of me is diving into work (work from home) and keeping my mind very busy on that and my kids, or my thoughts carry away, giving me nightmares.  Of course I try and think positive, and I do as often as I can, but I’m only human, and a part of me knows the reality is, of what this may be and waiting another day and another day of him not getting this looked into makes me extremely worried for his health.  He’s 71 years old, he’s my all time hero.  He’s the dad who, with my mom, adopted me soon after I was born in Dallas, TX.  He’s the dad who, as a family, we’d go on skiing trips and when I was better at skiing would be waiting at the bottom of the slope for him, with me joking lying on the snow as if I was sleeping and waiting a long time for him to ski down.  He’s the dad who would do anything for his family.  He’s the dad who when I got good grades in school would take me to his favorite book stores to pick books out, and then get me my favorite gummy bears or Skittles, or whatever candy I craved at the moment.  He’s the dad who would read Goodnight Moon to me, or help me with math homework.  He’s the dad who graduated from University of Michigan, completely brilliant in the mind.  He’s the dad to this day retains so much information, I don’t even have an ounce of his awesomeness.

He’s the dad who would put my nightlight on so I wouldn’t have bad dreams, and as he walked out of my room would say, ‘See you later alligator’ as I replied back to him, ‘In a while crocodile.’  He’s the dad who I want around for many more years, and he’s the dad who doesn’t even realize truly how brilliant I think he is, because he’s so humble and doesn’t even realize he’s that awesome.  He’s the dad who, if I could, I would have taken his cancer treatments for him last year if I could I would, and if I could take this exploratory surgery for him now, I would do it in a second if I could do this for him.  Just hope daily that the phone rings and my mom calls and tells me my dad’s exploratory is scheduled, sooner than later.  I hope my dad doesn’t not get that done.  It may be ‘elective’ but I don’t think it’s an option at all.  xoxox

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